and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.

zishing
04-12-1992
no preferences
nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
and that's about it.

AB
AiPing
Amos
Andy
Baka-Tsuki
Caroline
ChinHian
Dom
De-Coder's Cafe a.k.a.Yap
Hisyam
JingSheng
LeeYang
Kee
Leonard
LiJie
MarcusChan
Matilda
Max
MelWeh
RongRong
RuiFen
Sarah
SiHui
Stewart
Sumo
Valerie
Zak

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Today is Mainainence Night.

Got an sms from Dom telling me about The Prestige on thursday. Want to go, I can get hold of the cash, but my mom loves to tell me not to go out too often. "It's no good, you're mixing with bad company..." she tells me. Forget it, I'll ask her tomorrow.

I like that new Welcome to the Black Parade song, the mv is great too. But since YouTube sound quality its not as good compared to normal WMP/iTunes, I decided to sync the iTunes with the mv. After 3 tries, I succeded, only to have the bloody video stop streaming at the last few seconds, nevertheless, it's Maintainence Night, I've really got nothing better to do, at least I knew I had, but it's gone now.

I'd really like to ramble on tonight but I just don't feel like it. Let's just say I'll try my best to get to The Prestige. That's it, it's over.


"There are no stars tonight, but I just want to wish that we can relive all the memories we've made before. Every night I'll just think of everything we've done, and how it all just fell apart. I won't even dare say a word cause' a voice keeps telling me 'She hates you, don't make her hate you even more.' "

Memories are no use for crying over, they're for smiling over, being happy for everything you used to do, and now you just can't do it anymore. So why be unhappy over such things, when you can just smile and look everything on the bright side, that's when you emerge from the tunnel, and you see the rain has stopped, and a beautiful rainbow appears over you...

"I don't want our relationship to remain stagnant anymore, will you make my wish come true?"

A few years back, I remember watching this movie about some epidemic thing. All the people in the fictional city were wishing for a miracle to happen, and it did. And now, I'm wishing for my miracle too, but it just refuses to emerge from that deep hole in the ground. But one day I'm sure that hole will be wide enough for me to drop a bucket down and fish it up, just like water from a dry well.

As adapted from the last week of chapel on thanksgiving, I have some additions to make to the "thank" list:
Be thankful for not wanting to go back home, because it shows you have a family.
Be thankful for all those tears you've shed after getting scolded, because it shows that you're gonna do the right thing.
Be thankful for your heart, broken and shattered into a million pieces, because it shows that you have emotion.
Be thankful for going to school on 1st day of holiday, because it shows that you are needed.
Be thankful for never saying a word, because it shows that you have people worrying about you silently.
Be thankful for that bloody bright orange not-matching blogskin, because someone might have liked it better that way while it lasted.
Be thankful for all the problems in this flat-rounded world, because it shows that there will be solutions.
Be thankful for not knowing the 987FM sms number when its just that question when you know the answer, because it means that you have a target to chase after even if it means you have lost.
Be thankful for switching from mp3 to radio and hearing the continuation of "Welcome to the Black Parade" as it was when you stopped your mp3, because it shows that fate is there and fate watches over you.
Be thankful for when you don't get the thing you want or aim for so desperately, because it shows that it has been left for another time, and that all the other stuff that you don't want is deemed fit for you at this point in time.
Be thankful for when you get a call when you're trying to down this imminent big boss with 19 other people, because it shows that friends are always there for you.
Be thankful for all the nagging, because it shows that you're not deaf yet.
Be thankful for that relationship that just suddenly cut off, because it shows that you've helped someone but that someone just didn't want anymore help.
Be thankful for all that endless chasing that never works out in the end, because it shows that you're capable of portraying desparation.
Be thankful for that Math retest you're mugging for, because it shows that you can pass with determination.
Be thankful for all the failures, all the crap that doesn't work out, because it shows that you've tried.
Be thankful for feeling depressed, dismayed, sorrowful, because it shows that you haven't ended your life pointlessly with suicide.
Be thankful for looking at this post because it shows that you're not blind.
Lastly, be thankful for everything good and bad, happy and sad, joy and sorrow, ecstacy and depression, because it means that you're a living human being, you can express and feel emotion, and that you're special.


Somtimes miracles don't come because the tunnel is not lighted up. But just tiny spark, and we can see, the light at the end of the tunnel, the beautiful white arch, and the rainbow of seven colours. When we blink once, everything disppears because we've just put ourselves into another tunnel, so just continue and we'll get to that rainbow, eventually.

"Good times, fun times,
Bad times, sad times.
They all will disappear one day,
And we shall start on a clean slate."

So what school does is not educate us,
Nor teach us how to solve complicated psychologial situations.
It only teaches us,
How to prepare for immenent death.

So this is goodbye.

To all my friends of 2.9; Regardless of everything, everything and yes, everything(you'll get my explaination later). I really want to express my gratitude to each and every one of you. We deserve a prize for best class spirit.

As Chinese superstition randomly hits people like me, who have the time to actually stare blankly into the sky and think, 2 means good, luck, which is why you give/want 2 oranges during CNY. 9 is the same as 3, it means alot, and I say aLOT. So wouldn't 2.9 mean aLOT of luck? Assuming we get caught for all the stupid things that we do, especially major scale ones, I can say we're really really lucky, in the sarcastic sense, but nevertheless. (=

And since I have so much time, I'm gonna have to write a note to each and every one of you. It may get long, but it's my special thing I can do for my class. It's the small things that lea to the big things. So let's go by register number; the higher I climb, the harder I'll fall...

1) Abraham a.k.a AB : Best Class Chairman ever. After 6F I thought that we wouldn't get into the same class again. By fate, it did, and I thank you for your quiet yet attract-everyone speeches. The slacker yet still can impress teacher. What a role model. (=

2) Augustine a.k.a Auggy: For all your entertaining and half-crazy jokes. I'll remember "Diggory" and those soccer socks for a long long time to come. It's a wonder how they say you cant wear low socks in the book but they don't put anything for high socks and you get punished.

3) Benjamin a.k.a Kee: Don't worry, same class next year, I'll have more to thank you for then. But for now, for being the Kee you are, that's enough, don't get hyper next year.

4) Xin An a.k.a Cartoon: Another one like auggy, thanks for the entertainment, the
pretty-much-same stuff as auggy, but nevertheless, for being a passive friend whose presence I can feel, no matter how small it gets.

5) Amos a.k.a. Diggory(it's taboo but school's over, no offence =P) : I can't really say much here, you actually owe me more thanks than I owe you, but thank you, you brightened the whole class for the 1st half of the year, we owe you that much entertainment. Thank You.

6) Jing Jie: No a.k.a for you, maybe we should call you the aLOT dude. Thanks for all the name inventions that pull 2.9 into Uniquely2.9 we are today. And congrats on taking my spot in IB, I feel that you deserve it more than my lazy can't-be-bothered-to-do-IB attitude does.

7) Malcom a.k.a. ChuisyMalc: The poor thing , always late. Well, that last night/earlymorning in Desaru surely taught you a hard lesson, but a lesson nonetheless. Thanks for being the friend you were from primary all the way till today, when we part.

8) Justin Du a.k.a Du: The chief power generator of 2.9, always up to no good, but it turns out to be good-natured fun, laughter, peace and joy in the end, though sometimes there's less peace. We'll miss all the fun, life will never be as lively with Du ramming things down every 5 mins.

9) Jin Pin a.k.a "Jing" Pin: Full of surprises, he actually looks like he's bad but actually he's a superkindguy inside.Thanks for being the funny, angry, and kind guy you'll always be. You'll shine like the gold in your name soon enough.

10) Jack: For whamming, slapping, pushing, shoving, screaming, punching and ramming me all the time. Doens't just apply to me, it does to almost the whoel class. Thanks for that and your Archies which never seem to reach me, they always get intercepted by someone else.

11) James: The class' major pollutant source. Thank you for all the nice-smelling CFCs and the defiance of Salinah's law: Don't pollute the air, now got all the haze and CFC whatever ah. Anything is okay with you, except that asscrack =P. Thanks for being the James that everyone looks to for laughter.

12) Joel a.k.a Tieh: The prime heir to the Proud Family throne, thanks for your witty ideas, pushing me around like I was a feather, pulling of my tie, the BBQ, the Munchkins, and most importantly, your soul, which will be as good and as proud as ever.

13) Joseph a.k.a AM: For all your great entertainment and secret nickname, passive yet striking impressions, thank you. **Tssssssss**

14) Julian a.k.a Kodenai: For pulling the class average up by a super large amount of marks, for giving the "de-nai" suffix at the back of our names, we'll miss your brains, ko-de-nai.

15) Justin Ng a.k.a Edward: The Edward, Squidward, Wardward, Mass Serpent Ward etc. Thank you for the host of names, the stupid jokes, and the Kee bullying.

16) Ian: Thank you for the passive friendship. I've known you isnce P3, it's a bond that can be remembered.

17) Dominic a.k.a Dom: The factual half-line of 2.9. Another year, just like AB. We've not changed since yeah? Thanks for this last year of classmates I suppose. Stone on, Dom.

18) Leonard a.k.a Leodenai: For being the friend who gets involved in the form of singing most times, the friend who needs help and says/sings it out loud. Thank you, you've given me another opportunity help and to think hard and reflect on my life so far.

19) Shi Quan a.k.a Shi: My so-called name brother, cause of the shi and the shi-ng. I thought you were an ass in primary school when you weren't in my class. You proved me wrong, so thanks for being there, brother.

20) Kevin a.k.a Ling: For all the friendship experiences, for all the trouble you get into with Issac, thanks for the entertainment, and the Kee tormenting too. =P

21) Yuan Wei a.k.a Big Guy: The guy who loves to act as a blurking. Thanks, without you, the class will be virtually empty, not to mention everyone is Yuan Wei's friend.

22) Ee Hui a.k.a Loy: For being able to express your thoughts in 1 go, being able to intimidate people one head taller(and shorter) than you, for being the special friend you are, and for teaching me those important lessons that aren't taught in any class, thank you, you're a friend I shall treasure for the long road ahead, likewise I do for others, but the impression you make cuts deeper.

23) Marcus a.k.a MC[R(optional)] : Thanks for talking me about random meaningless nonsense, I really enjoyed your short company, and thanks for scratching my hand, there's a scar there and that's how I'll remember you easily.

24) Milkent a.k.a MilkMan: For being the asshole and super influence you are, thank you for making the class play soccer, it's part of spirit bonding. And thank you for asking me to go with you to RGS so you aren't alone when you go home, at least I know I'm needed, be it for a stupid reason or not. =P

25) Nicholas a.k.a Tye: For all the peskering, childishness, act-cuteness, refusal-to-shut-up, and -5ness, thank you. It's not in our control to make you grow up, it's yours, we're just here for encouragement, as it's so-called.

26) Chin Hian a.k.a LohChinHian sonof Loh Chin Mai brotherof Sasha etc. etc. : Lately you've been hitting me for no reason, but who cares, as long as you're better than Tye. So thanks for that, I don't hate you, everyone is my friend, we're all friends here.

27) Roy a.k.a Buddha/Toy Tam: For the meditation sessions and a really out-of-this-world personality, thanks for making everyone call out "Buddha", no offence intended of course.

28) Joash a.k.a Jowashe: For being the FO, See friend that you are all through the year, especially those pon GaoLu, matron periods. FO!

29) Issac: For being the smartass, the super enthu NCC cadet, the hornyboy, the guy-who-announces-to-a-joint-convo-"I'm watching porn" person. Thanks, and grats for the success in IB, I hope you won't end up even worse than what you already are. =P

30) Terrence a.k.a Bohda: 1st in the Smart Row(not academaically, it's by reg. no.). For all the stupid remarks, and ridiculous comments like "Give me your shirt." Oi, relax la. (=

31) Clarence a.k.a Klarence/Twix: 2nd in the Smart Row. For the brains, the commentary, the funny stuff that's built up on 1 single thought. Thanks for your jokes and your Impending Sense of Humor, I'll miss you, so thanks.

32) Max a.k.a ex-Max Tan/Maximum Poser: 3rd in the Smart Row. Not that you're poser, but for being/acting both idiot and smarts at the same time, thank you, you've just solved simultaneous emotions.

33) Me: Honoured to be the 4th in the Smart Row. I'm not worthy of self-praise, I'm better off scolding myself.

34) Melvin a.k.a Melweh: 5th and last dude in the smart row. You've made a great impact in my life by bringing in someone which I didn't even know from the start. So in the end, my life is in ruins. Of course, you're not to blame for my lousy mistakes, and on top of all of that, you're the friend who hangs in there with me. So now since we're in the same class next year, you can help me out again, isin't that better? So thank you, for the fate, the disaster, and your never-ending efforts to help and whack me. Thank you.

Just before midnight, 7 more minutes and we're really officially no longer 2.9 Benjamin anymore, but we will still be. Nothing can stop you, as long as you believe...

So I haven't been blogging in quite awhile. Let's get back to life.

Today our year was called for some special meeting with the principal. Sure enough, you can guess what happened. I wouldn't like to elaborate much because "blogging about teachers and schools" was one of the things they elaborated on.

Went back to class to play some new game brought in, courtesy of Joel, called Munchkin Bites. Despite the fact that it's really lame and has no point at all, I couldn't continue the bore of tai ti so i ended up playing too, and I won by a stroke of luck, how lucky.

After another 2 rounds of that Munchkin game, went for some singing show again. How sian. Finish already then go home lor.


"Friendship is built on trust, so when friends quarrel, they always end back as friends, because they trust each other. When friendship breaks because one or two mistakes, be it big or small, it's really pointless. Real friends forgive each other, no matter what happens. A broken friendship is just like running a demolition ball over a house."

"Friendships are never destroyed. They can be broken, but you always can build them up again. Because that special spot in your heart is reserved for them. Even if a different house or even a shopping centre is set up on that cleared land, it's just another type of friendship. But nevertheless, you will still be friends."

"There is no such thing as your friend will not forgive. He or she just hasn't forgiven yet, so you must persevere in your course, no matter what. Little acts of kindness will bring you a long long way."


Of course, who wants their happy memories thrown into the fire?
But the point is,
Why bother reliving those happy memories,
When you can make them now?

I really don't want this friendship,
Which is about to fade into the darkness,
To go out and leave that patch of land barren,
Then what would be the use?

If you still won't forgive,
I'll never hold it against you.
Because as a friend, why would I do so,
When I'm not perfect myself?

Friends care,
Friends share.
Didn't I care and share before?
Well I still do now.

I don't mind waiting forever,
No matter how long it'll take.
I'll still be waiting at that barren land,
For you to come so we can build something again.

There's no such thing as hopeless,
No matter how long the tunnel, there's always light at the end.
And no matter how long it rains,
There'll always be a rainbow at the end.

Then you'll find that,
I'll be waiting at that rainbow.
It may dissappear when you turn around for just that second,
But I won't disappear, I'll be waiting there forever.

I don't care how long it takes,
Or how much strength I'll use.
But I'll carry on, waiting, asking, trying,
I'll carry on.

If one were to give up what one desired,
And it would to go back right into one's arms.
Wouldn't one then shrug it away,
Saying that one has really given up on it?

So the desire will want that one,
But has to give it up because,
If the desire desires,
The desire will never get what the desire yearns for.

So the desire shrugs it off,
And when that one comes back into the desire's arms,
The desire would shrug one off,
Saying that the desire has given up on that one.

It's a never ending circle.

And it will never end.

Love of mine
Someday you will die
But I'll be close behind
And follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark


Then I'll follow you into the dark

I fell down, yet again. Give me time and I'll find the bandages okay?
What happened, I thought you've already healed?


Don't be discouraged in whatever happens to you, because ultimately, no matter what, everyone will find their joy in life. Usually by the time you do find joy, you're already practically dead. But what does physical joy matter? Entertainment is not equal to pure joy.

So look every day like it's the best day of your life. Because life can slip away like nothing. It's good that something slips away and you're still alive. But if you hurt yourself again because you didn't die from that fall, then what does life matter to you? One can never be greedy about joy. Joy will come on it's own, whether it's in the form you want, or it's just the rainbow that comes after the thunderstorm.

"the point is that
i didnt think i would be able to study
even pick my book and read 1 page
because everyday
i was thinking
about her
im being honest here
so the fact that im able to let it go
and still buck myself up for exams
shows that im really really lucky
its not like no one gets lucky
the word lucky is very vague
but it just means my good times are gonna come real soon
maybe its not the good times that i actually want
but nevertheless, a little joy is better than none at all
if you drown yourself in sorrow
you're just like waving for the bad times bus
and keeping it there
if you just let it pass on down the road
the next bus will come
and your life will start anew"

"ok take the situation like this
if your in a competition
youre bandaged in 15 places
do you think you can play as well
course not
what happens is
you must wait for wounds to heal
of course youll lose the competition
but when you get up and win again
its just pure joy"

I hate to waste the space like this but these quotes really teach us about how it hurts when you're cut here and there. But the real strength doesn't come from getting cut again and again, it's being able to stand up, recover from those cuts, and go back to fighting on. That's real strength, and that's the spirit of life.

Whatever normal happened today, I'll elaborate tmr. Too full of philosophy now...

Okay, new phone yay. If you haven't got my number, just ask me in school or tag or whatever method you have in your mind, as long as it doesn't concern something stupid.

Today was a wreck. TWO hour CPR session. Man, 2 hours...I know it's life-vital but do we really need 2 hours? Anyway, at some acapella presentation, we all made a hell lot of noise so we got scolded by the Director as usual. Now we'll have to go straight to the Parade Square for assembly. So much for me being the keybearer.

Went for the NCC briefing and ended up volunteering for 2 weeks of torture, not to mention the MSG is very particular about uniform, and badges, which i don't have at all cos' I couldn't be bothered to buy. Better start estimating my pumps. =d

Damn, 2 days and 61 messages sent already, I wonder how I'm gonna live with 500...

Sometimes we seem to hate our life alot, and right now it feels like the whole world has collapsed on me. Somehow from that day onwards, anything and everything that is disaster seems to show up.

Friday the 13th turned out better than Saturday the 14th.

I got scolded for going to a dungeon while we had to change a rice cooker.

"Really mom, it's just a RICE COOKER. Must you really interrupt my WoW?"

"You better shut that comp and get changed, you selfish boy."

Okay, so i got called selfish, and "not being able to help the society in future". I've been helping tons of people out of my own accord, and you call me selfish. Sheesh. I couldn't really take this so I started to retaliate, of course. In the end I just let my parents have it their way, couldn't be bothered to waste my breath on fighting anymore.

The fact why teenagers hate their parents so much, is just misunderstanding. If my parents knew my role of 1 out of the 20 ppl who determined the fate of a big boss in that big big dungeon, they would have let me continue knowing the fact that I was actually interacting with the "society" to get a big problem down. The boss is just the big problem: Lots of health, Hits hard, and has Special tricks.

Then even after the boss, there's always the special rewards. Yeah, I'll keep quiet for today, you can all guess. Leonard, don't you dare tell anyone or I'll slaughter you. No lah, just guess, it's easy ^-^.

I went over to Kee's house today. We went to play LAN for 5 hours and it was pretty much boring. But I stayed there all the same. Always the friend I have to be.

Somehow now these days I don't type so much. Maybe I prefer typing some of the stuff I think about, I don't know. But I really wouldn't wanna elaborate right now. At least until I'm done stiching my invisible wounds...


After seeing those vague words,
I'm not sure what you're trying to mean.
It's really over, I suppose,
I've become blind and cannot see.

Lovely day today, Thursday the 12th!

After WoWing the morning, went over to Lido with Clarence, Max, Yuan Wei, Issac, MC, Terrence, Xin An and James to watch this movie called "Talladega Nights". It was crude humour, and it had a longer name, but I don't wanna spell it out, too long.

Anyway, got back home. I played WoW and we finished a boss off. Neat finish after 3 failed tries. I love my guild. (=

Wouldn't pull myself up to train after the dungeon. Brain got tired and slacked off after 30min. But some talk on MSN did the job.

Going to Kee's house tmr, didn't know so many things could happen during marking days.

It's Thursday the 12th, and it's gonna be Friday real soon...

Sian.

At least its over.

I really hated those attituded ppl at the end of the LC. They sounded like they wanted to go home liddat. Oi, if you want to go home so badly, just let US off first can? Don't make us chase after our bags like that time ppl chase after Hello Kitties.

I hope my brain gets up in time so I can start playing...

Chinese I, not too bad. I never expected the dictionary to help me spell the word "guai". (=

Maths, its just a matter of shooting. You either shoot and miss, shoot and hit, or don't shoot at all. Snap targets, haha. I think I shot too fast and so my hand hurts now.

I must thank my father fr slapping me in the head yesterday telling me about how cone slant heights can be found using pythagoras, screw that dude btw. If it weren't for him I wouldn't have finished the paper either.

1 more day, and we're free.

Gonna start playing WoW after tomorrow. I guess I'd better do so, its good recovery from my invisible wounds.

Life Science was stupid.

Lit was stupid too.

Aiyah, sian ah.

Was writing alot of stuff for LS. So my hand was already gonna burst.

Then the Lit paper came and I hate the bloody questions they set. It just made my hand damn pain. Then when I got back home, my dad dug up all the past year papers and made me do every single one of them. I have until 10.30 to do so. Hai.

Ohyeah, to all you PSLE peeps out there. Congrats, you've finished 6 years of meaningless schooling from Alphabet to Zygotes, speaking of which, do primary schools study zygotes? Cant rmb liao...so long ago.

Hmm, tired lah. I hate math sums and quadratic graphs, at least I hate them when you do it in bulk. Haven't touched on indices yet. Well it's only 2 days so by staying vigilant and sane, I should be able to make it through, i SHOULD...

Aah, Chinese tmr -.-" Whoever invented the 2 languages policy, I dont hate you. I don't hate Chinese too, just that I don't really study language like that. ^-^

And to whoever might be taking an exam, I don't care whether from Afghanistan to Zimbawe, all the best!

Okay, so where shall I start?

Rotten morning.

Rotten afternoon.

Rotten evening.

Hai.

Okay, so I got pushed to getting my hair cut. But was too lazy, wouldn't budge. I'd rather cut this flat top of mine after the exam. Cut now for what? Bongard already check what...

Next, the haze thing. Plus the gastric flu, I'd say that this year really sucks for exams. Either that, or terrorists are gonna bomb those schools down with gastric flu. I hate haze, and yesterday at the mooncake party, someone wanted me to burn a stick. I chose to follow the path of environmental conservation and refrained from burning the stick.(though i did poke my stick into that dude's lantern and almost tore it)

I've read through my lit and LS notes. Frankly, they're too cheem. Some man came up to me and asked whether I took bio. I gave him some stupid answer and continued to look at my paper.

Aiyah, today so sian. Wrtie also don't wanna write lah.

Another SuperFast

The mooncake party...hmm. Stupid lah.

Got up, read a few chapters of Ichigo 100%. It's one of my only ways to destress. I'm not reading cos' I'm some horny ass.

Friend lent me a prepaid card. Okay, so that settles my gaming for the holidays.

Better get back to mugging now, tomorrow is gonna be busy.


Sometimes you'll think
Why is life like this?

Life is just a fantasy.
So, what is a fantasy?

SuperFastPost:

Stupid mooncake party.

Got nagged at to revise Histoy, wow. Read through LS and wrote 31 SEQs for Tan Huili to answer. Hopefully that'll keep her busy for the rest of the weekend. I'm a sadist.

Cheers.

Today was the start of EOY.

The whole level had to stay back on the parade cause' 3 classes showed up late. Then LCM went up and talked alot on respecting the nation. Talk about propoganda.

English 1 was o-kay. I wrote alot of based-on-a-true-story crap for Question Number 5: Regret.
Sided for the raising public awarness stand in Situational Writing. It's good practice for Geog.

Geog was stupid. Alot of meaningless and vague questions. Who cares, there's moderation.

Came back home, watched tv, played HL2. Got bored, came here. Typed. Talk about broken speech.

Listened to mrbrown talk about the Jack Neo air-con advert. Not so funny this time. I prefer the ones a few days back. Even mrbrowns can't joke all the time.


"All of us make mistakes in life. Sometimes these mistakes start out from something small. It is not until we realise the harm we have caused, that we will finally experience the sorrow, the anxiety, the worry, the troubles, the pain, and most of all, the regret."

Okay, after these 2 super screwed up months, I have to let everything out. Only then I can concentrate properly, don't want to screw my EOY too.

Lesson 1: Somethines everything may screw up and not turn the way you plan, but from those falls you learn valuable lessons.

Lesson 2: When you do fall, acknoledge it, pick yourself up, and move along.

Lesson 3: Never ever try to pursue something too hard. Even though we don't have 9 lives, emotionally we have as many lives as we can breeze, drive, struggle, fight, and live through,

Lesson 4: Every person has the potential to inspire, help, encourage, entertain and be a friend.

Lesson 5: In everything we do there is a choice. Breathing, eating, living, writing, typing, playing, talking, running, fighting, shooting, listening, punching, kicking, drinking, watching, feeling, touching, sleeping, mugging. You have to make a choice when you do anything, and the choice you make affects the next choice you make, and your variety of choices you have.

Lesson 6: Beginnings and Endings are only markers. Even markers go inaccurate. Sometimes when you think everything has ended, you won't really know until you go on, but then that wouldn't be the ending, would it?

To sum everything up:
In life, sometimes we rise, sometimes we fall. It doesn't really matter which happens, but what really matters is that you don't just run away or try to cage all the emotion inside, because even if someone tries to open that cage, it's locked, and the key is within yourself. So the most difficult person in the world to conquer is actually, yourself.
I've been through this. Which explains why I'm writing it in the first place. It's no good to cling on to something, because your hand will get sore. If you know when exactly to let go, like when you have a parachute on, you can actually jump off and feel safe. When like is clinging on to something, we forget everything and wait for help. The parachute is when you understand whatever you've been doing. The strain on the thing you've been clinging on and your aching hand. Then you begin to realise and thus can let go and pull the strap on your understanding, so you can fall safetly.

"The higher you climb, the higher you fall." What's there to be scared about falling when you have your parachute?

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